So, five pounds in two days is a bit extreme. I'm actually relieved that the number on the scale went up by a pound and a half this morning. No regrets. I felt good last night making myself and my boyfriend a good dinner. Our plan is to let go of our plan a bit on the weekends, though not to go buck wild, so the moment of truth will be Monday when I weigh in. I'm guessing that overall, I'll have lost 3 lbs and an inch or two.
Did some bench lifting in the morning, and attended another Zumba class though I gave it less effort than last time because HOLY GOD I CAN NOT BOUNCE ON MY TIPPY TOES FOR AN HOUR STRAIGHT. I still think it's a fun way to get all of my steps in, though, which I was successful in doing for the fourth day in a row.
I also attended my first Overeaters Anonymous meeting because what makes this time different than the hundreds of other times I tried to get my eating under control only to fail less than a month later? I think the secret is support, be it twelve-step, friends, or fellow life-changers. I cried. I'm a cryer. But I cried because I finally put the pieces together: the reason that I'm terrified of dying because of my disordered eating is because it's what killed my ahjashi. It's a Korean term -- basically, this man was like a father to me. His disordered eating led to heart problems, then multiple surgeries, and then he never woke up from a surgery. It didn't have to happen that way. He could have still had more time with his grand kids. It doesn't have to be that way for me. I could watch my theoretical grandkids grow up.
Food log!:
Breakfast - Three eggs with a half a tablespoon of butter and a cup of skim milk = 374 Cal
Lunch - Wendy's Ultimate Chicken Grill = Yum! = 390 Cal
Dinner - Spicy chicken pasta leftovers = 611 Cal
Snacks - A banana and an apple = 160 Cal
Total: 1,535 Cal 180 Carbs 44 Fat 94 Protein 1,595 Salt 51 Sugar
And not over on a single stat! WOO!
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